This is our first blog. We meet July 18,2009. We are happy!
Saturday, December 24, 2011
The happiest day of our lives!!
Friday, January 15, 2010
Crossroads of life
It's amazing to me how we get to some crossroads in life and have difficulty deciding which way to go. Why are we so afraid of the unknown? is it worth it to stay in our comfort zone and just keep doing what we are doing, even though we know we need to take the chance? I see people who spend their lives wishing it was different, however they don't do anything to change it. Change takes sacrifice, hard work, getting out of our comfort zone.
Happiness should be our main goal in life, and even though we say it's what we want, we don't do enough to achieve it to the fullest because we are afraid. Staying with someone you love, even though you know they don't, just because you don't want to "suffer", You don't like your job, but stay because it's source of income. Deep inside you know is not working and still don't let go to give yourself the chance to be free, experiment new things and be happy.
Taking risks will mean diving into the unknown. What if it doesn't work? What would I do? We start thinking about the negative, and give up our dreams because of the "what if's" Sometimes things won't go our way...we just need to follow our dreams and fight for what we want . Never give up and learn from the mistakes. You know what is best for you...everyone will have an opinion, however you should know what is your goal.
Don't be afraid...dive into the unknown to achieve your dreams...there is no limit to what you can do in life.
Happiness should be our main goal in life, and even though we say it's what we want, we don't do enough to achieve it to the fullest because we are afraid. Staying with someone you love, even though you know they don't, just because you don't want to "suffer", You don't like your job, but stay because it's source of income. Deep inside you know is not working and still don't let go to give yourself the chance to be free, experiment new things and be happy.
Taking risks will mean diving into the unknown. What if it doesn't work? What would I do? We start thinking about the negative, and give up our dreams because of the "what if's" Sometimes things won't go our way...we just need to follow our dreams and fight for what we want . Never give up and learn from the mistakes. You know what is best for you...everyone will have an opinion, however you should know what is your goal.
Don't be afraid...dive into the unknown to achieve your dreams...there is no limit to what you can do in life.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
We Humans are Ungrateful Animals....
Humans are ungrateful, unappreciative animals. We have so much that we take for granted, never realizing how good we have it. I thank God every night that I wasn’t born a dung beetle. Can you imagine? You think you hate your job? Quit complaining. You have nothing on the dung beetle. Job fairs for dung beetles must be really disappointing. “Seriously, that’s all you got for me? Why did I bother going to college?” All humans are lucky enough to be born as an animal with infinite options and possibilities. I mean, even Paris Hilton is able to be successful, and certainly her skill set is less impressive than those monkeys that dance to the organ.
Humans, at least those who are smart, begin with a starter house and then as they accumulate more wealth by getting better jobs and getting raises, move on to bigger and fancier houses. Don’t you think the turtle would like to upgrade his home? “No, don’t worry about me. I have everything I need. It has enough room to tuck my head and legs in and, best of all, it’s mobile. If the neighborhood gets bad, you know, like a lot of raccoons move in, then I can just relocate.”
And what about our diets? As humans, we can enjoy eating almost anything, which gives us countless variety. If you don’t think that’s true, check out Anthony Bourdain sometime. People make fun of me for bringing a sandwich to work every day for lunch, but I still get to vary the lunchmeat. Koalas, on the other hand, are pretty much stuck always eating eucalyptus. Isn't that kind of limiting? Don't they get sick of it? I guess that’s a low carb diet, but where do they get their protein? Also, I know I get sick of leftover pizza on the third day. I still remember how sad dinner time always was for my dog. She'd be so excited when we brought her food and then she'd look at it and go," Aw, dog food again!? Come on!" But I guess humans just care about varying food more than most animals. You don't hear fish going, "Nah, I don't feel like seafood today."
Humans are much pickier than other animals. We have specific tastes about what we find attractive. Some men are attracted to Asian women, some are into blondes, some like them skinny and some like them with curves. For other animals, they simply sense pheromones that tell them that a female in the area wants sex and they jump on the first female they see. So basically, it’s like the prom. And if you’ve ever felt bad about waking up next to someone ugy, just be glad you’re not a hyena. Their dating scene must really suck. “Man, all the chicks in the club are ugly, just like last week! Just do yourself a favor, don’t pick up a laughing hyena. Sure, at first it makes you feel good because you think you’re funny, but it gets annoying after a while. And nothing’s worse than being laughed at in bed.”
So next time you’re feeling down, think you don’t have many options, and think that your life is dull, just remember that you were lucky enough to be born a human, rather than those fish that swim around fish tanks eating the algae.
Monday, December 21, 2009
A letter to Sammie......
I've had such sweet and tender thoughts about you all day, my love. Not sure I can put
these into words. I think it's more of a heart to heart thing than anything else. I've
had these passionately ardent yet gentle feelings about you and the nature of the
relationship we share.
Its feelings of desire for you,
wanting to protect you, and this
overwhelming love for you....
and yet that's not quite it.
Its more like the realization
of what you have done to my heart and the way its changed forever by loving and being
loved by you.
Its knowing that I'll never need to look for love for the rest of my life.
Its knowing that your presence in my life is so integral to my very existence
and that the "match" between us that is so perfect and kind and loving and knowing and caring and delightful and warm
is always interwoven
with a sweet easiness.
You are the only person
in the world
who really knows me
and there's a magic in that and an incredible lightness of being that is both indescribable and life altering.
Your love for me is like a magic potion that has reached into the very seat of my soul
and taken up residence.
Oh sure, sometimes its a little 'hectic', but its always there with
its soothing and melodious presence as well.
I fear I am rambling without a sense of
direction in what I'm trying so desperately to convey to you.
Your love is simply
the most wonderfully familiar
and elusively unexplainable phenomenon
that's ever happened to me.
A love that simultaneously makes me absolutely crazy and completely sane.
And I wouldn't have it any other way....
Love,
Ed....
these into words. I think it's more of a heart to heart thing than anything else. I've
had these passionately ardent yet gentle feelings about you and the nature of the
relationship we share.
Its feelings of desire for you,
wanting to protect you, and this
overwhelming love for you....
and yet that's not quite it.
Its more like the realization
of what you have done to my heart and the way its changed forever by loving and being
loved by you.
Its knowing that I'll never need to look for love for the rest of my life.
Its knowing that your presence in my life is so integral to my very existence
and that the "match" between us that is so perfect and kind and loving and knowing and caring and delightful and warm
is always interwoven
with a sweet easiness.
You are the only person
in the world
who really knows me
and there's a magic in that and an incredible lightness of being that is both indescribable and life altering.
Your love for me is like a magic potion that has reached into the very seat of my soul
and taken up residence.
Oh sure, sometimes its a little 'hectic', but its always there with
its soothing and melodious presence as well.
I fear I am rambling without a sense of
direction in what I'm trying so desperately to convey to you.
Your love is simply
the most wonderfully familiar
and elusively unexplainable phenomenon
that's ever happened to me.
A love that simultaneously makes me absolutely crazy and completely sane.
And I wouldn't have it any other way....
Love,
Ed....
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Once upon a time.....
Once upon a time in this little bar I sat on a stool waiting for a friend of mine. She never showed up but I found it was not a wasted trip that lonely night. I listened to music and had a drink which I won't drink much when I drive. So I just sipped away at my drink and listened to the music and people try to sing.
I watched this guy come into the bar as I watched I could see the bouncer was asking for ID and this guy just lifted his hat to show his bald head as if to say you think I'm not of age and the bouncer let him in, I sat and chuckled to myself that was so cute.
Shortly after this guy while walking past me, stopped looked at me with a big smile and told me how beautiful I was and asked if I was alone. When I told him yes he asked if he could sit with me, still looking at me with wonder and a glisten in his eyes. Like he couldn't understand how I could be alone.
He finished his trip to the bathroom came right back and sat down beside me. He asked me all kinds of questions and told me all about himself. We talked and talked. He had me laughing and smiling with such wonder. I wonder why he had chosen me, what does he see so special? He was amazing he told me of the jobs he had and that he was a Veteran. He would touch my face and tell me how beautiful I was and he even wanted to kiss me. He wanted to get out of that place and go some where else. I wanted to take off with him but I did not know him and wouldn't go. All of me wanting to I have to confess.
We sat and talked he knew everything about me by the time the night was over. I had no worries I just figured he was drunk and wouldn't even remember meeting me in the morning. I gave him my number on a bar napkin with hopes he would call. To my surprise he texted me. We text back and forth for a short very short time, when the kids he was watching ran off with his phone. I thought what the heck? why does he even bother not knowing the reason behind our lost communication I said a few not so nice things and thought I knew it.
The next day I received a phone call and he explaned what had happened. I felt like such a heel and asked him when he did find his phone to disregard the last few text. He told me all the things we had talked about at the bar that night and even things I didn't remember till he started telling me. He still knew my full name, my hair color and the color of my eyes. He said he knew when he met me I was a good person. We talked on and off and he kept wanting me to go to his place. He knew he wanted to see me again just as I knew I needed to see him again. I had to find out is this to good to be true? We made a date to walk around the July carnival with a friend of mine and our girls. I took him home after the carnival but first we sat by the water under the bridge. We talked and even hugged and kissed, his arms felt so good around me. I knew he had to be the one and I wasn't about to give up without finding out.
Well it is now Christmas and it will be our first Christmas together. He is still with us even though our home is full of havoc and chaos he is ready over come whatever comes our way. He is a great father figure to my children and I wish so much that we could have meet years ago. My daugther just helped him put christmas lights up outside and thats something we never had. He does things and would help any of my kids out that needed it no matter what it was. He works with Katherine and wants her to do the best she can. He has taken her under his wing she is the youngest and he wants the same for her as I do. Funny thing is she respects him and loves him and has accepted him into this family which I never thought she would accept anyone. I just wish my boys were younger they'd have the tree fort they always wanted. But no matter what someday they may come to him for help and I know he will be there. He loves us more then anything I know I feel it ever minute of everyday. Not that we won't have our hard times I know we will. But we will get past them our love is strong and we know that we are meant for eachother. WE ARE A FAMILY!!
P.S. He still has that napkin with my number on it and still tells me everyday how much he loves me. He now has been sending me love letters so I can read them all the time. But most of all even if he never said he loved me again I would know. I feel love with all he does, when he looks at me, when he holds me, even when were doing something together like dishes. I know I feel it!
Thank you Ed for comming into our lives, we love YOU!
I watched this guy come into the bar as I watched I could see the bouncer was asking for ID and this guy just lifted his hat to show his bald head as if to say you think I'm not of age and the bouncer let him in, I sat and chuckled to myself that was so cute.
Shortly after this guy while walking past me, stopped looked at me with a big smile and told me how beautiful I was and asked if I was alone. When I told him yes he asked if he could sit with me, still looking at me with wonder and a glisten in his eyes. Like he couldn't understand how I could be alone.
He finished his trip to the bathroom came right back and sat down beside me. He asked me all kinds of questions and told me all about himself. We talked and talked. He had me laughing and smiling with such wonder. I wonder why he had chosen me, what does he see so special? He was amazing he told me of the jobs he had and that he was a Veteran. He would touch my face and tell me how beautiful I was and he even wanted to kiss me. He wanted to get out of that place and go some where else. I wanted to take off with him but I did not know him and wouldn't go. All of me wanting to I have to confess.
We sat and talked he knew everything about me by the time the night was over. I had no worries I just figured he was drunk and wouldn't even remember meeting me in the morning. I gave him my number on a bar napkin with hopes he would call. To my surprise he texted me. We text back and forth for a short very short time, when the kids he was watching ran off with his phone. I thought what the heck? why does he even bother not knowing the reason behind our lost communication I said a few not so nice things and thought I knew it.
The next day I received a phone call and he explaned what had happened. I felt like such a heel and asked him when he did find his phone to disregard the last few text. He told me all the things we had talked about at the bar that night and even things I didn't remember till he started telling me. He still knew my full name, my hair color and the color of my eyes. He said he knew when he met me I was a good person. We talked on and off and he kept wanting me to go to his place. He knew he wanted to see me again just as I knew I needed to see him again. I had to find out is this to good to be true? We made a date to walk around the July carnival with a friend of mine and our girls. I took him home after the carnival but first we sat by the water under the bridge. We talked and even hugged and kissed, his arms felt so good around me. I knew he had to be the one and I wasn't about to give up without finding out.
Well it is now Christmas and it will be our first Christmas together. He is still with us even though our home is full of havoc and chaos he is ready over come whatever comes our way. He is a great father figure to my children and I wish so much that we could have meet years ago. My daugther just helped him put christmas lights up outside and thats something we never had. He does things and would help any of my kids out that needed it no matter what it was. He works with Katherine and wants her to do the best she can. He has taken her under his wing she is the youngest and he wants the same for her as I do. Funny thing is she respects him and loves him and has accepted him into this family which I never thought she would accept anyone. I just wish my boys were younger they'd have the tree fort they always wanted. But no matter what someday they may come to him for help and I know he will be there. He loves us more then anything I know I feel it ever minute of everyday. Not that we won't have our hard times I know we will. But we will get past them our love is strong and we know that we are meant for eachother. WE ARE A FAMILY!!
P.S. He still has that napkin with my number on it and still tells me everyday how much he loves me. He now has been sending me love letters so I can read them all the time. But most of all even if he never said he loved me again I would know. I feel love with all he does, when he looks at me, when he holds me, even when were doing something together like dishes. I know I feel it!
Thank you Ed for comming into our lives, we love YOU!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Angels and The Christmas Season.
Every Christmas Angels touch our lives, we as people are so blessed this holiday season. Angels are everywhere and can take the form of anyone. Your mother,father, sister, brother,Girlfriend, wife, total stranger, etc. Regardless of who they are, they just have to be nice, kind, and loving. All year round these Christmas Angels are loving and give us that loving feeling.
I want you to think of a time that a Christmas Angel has touched you or your family. At the worst time this year, who was that person that came to you to help you. Angels do not care what they receive, they are selfless in nature. This type of action goes a long way and will allways be remembered. Now all you should do is pass this type of feeling on to new people. Go out and give that stranger or family member the touch of love and kindness.
It's not uncommon for a single touch to effect the world in chain effect. As well, this gesture will go on to a never ending chain reaction of love and caring. You can actuallly make a difference with just one touch. All you have to do now is go out to the world and pass on this simple gesture of caring.
Just the pass of the touch is alll that's asked. Christmas Angels don't ever receive much, and that's okay with Angels. The touch of love is the only thing that is waiting to be spread around the world. with hopes that everyone can feel the love that they are trying to spread and have received themselves.
Have you felt that type of love or gesture lately? When you needed that touch the most, I can only hope that you have felt that touch in one form or another.
Now ask yourself when was the last time you have given the same gesture to another person?It's a great feeling passing the love that you once received.
So go out this Holiday Season and become that Christmas Angel for another person, keep spreading the love. They are not alone, and you should be there and lend that helping hand when they need it the most. Once you become that Christmas Angel your life will never be the same again. This year remember to be that person and give that feeling to someone who needs it most.
My wish.....
My wish has been what was thought to be a simple one. I have wished for a family, someone to live my life with, someone who would love my children as much as I do. I have wished to have that special someone to go to sleep beside and wake up smiling at in the morning. Someone to laugh with whom can make me smile no matter how I feel.
I have found that person which I always dreamed about the one who loves us as much as we love him. I can not imagine a momment without him now that he is in our life. I can only wish we had met years ago, then we would have time to make more memories! I love to fall asleep in his arms knowing I get to wake up beside him. He makes me laugh and cry. Just now he came into the dinning room with a santa hat on an shaving cream for his beard with the biggest grin you'll ever see. God I love him so. He is there for me when I need him most. He takes care of me to the point I feel spoiled but I know I am just very lucky to feel the love I feel.
He has been a great influence on my youngest. He has set boundaries that I alone would not have had the strength to do. It will all help guide her in the right direction. She has accepted him into our family she even respects him. She has never really given any other male figure respect. But she knows hes great and he pays attention to her and my boys the same. The boys like him too!
I have found that person which I always dreamed about the one who loves us as much as we love him. I can not imagine a momment without him now that he is in our life. I can only wish we had met years ago, then we would have time to make more memories! I love to fall asleep in his arms knowing I get to wake up beside him. He makes me laugh and cry. Just now he came into the dinning room with a santa hat on an shaving cream for his beard with the biggest grin you'll ever see. God I love him so. He is there for me when I need him most. He takes care of me to the point I feel spoiled but I know I am just very lucky to feel the love I feel.
He has been a great influence on my youngest. He has set boundaries that I alone would not have had the strength to do. It will all help guide her in the right direction. She has accepted him into our family she even respects him. She has never really given any other male figure respect. But she knows hes great and he pays attention to her and my boys the same. The boys like him too!
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